What a Differance a Year Makes!

This week we had an appointment with our OB. Baby girl was so squirmy so it took the doctor a while to find the heart beat. I just love the sound of the steady rhythm of a growing baby's heart. Our surrogate is starting to feel better, not quite as nauseous. She is such a trooper!

Next week marks the 1 year mark of loosing our baby and nearly my life. It is so weird to think that it has really been 1 year. At this last Doctor's visit, my OB, who as become a close confidant said that it takes most people 4 years to get to where we are now. I think this a testament to my amazing support system, my faith and our surrogate. There are still moments when I feel emotional, sad and confused about the ordeal went through last year. Just thinking about it, takes me right back to the recovery room and ICU. After 1 full year though, I feel strong, empowered and hopeful. Time really does heal all wounds.

I know that I have expressed my thanks and gratitude over the last year but I am taking the opportunity to do it one more time. Life is so precious and it is important to give thanks for those that impact our journey. Here are just a few of the amazing people who have helped me get to where I am today:

-Our surrogate, you have given me the greatest gift I could have ever asked for. Your sacrifice and dedication are remarkable. I am still in awe that you are doing this for our family. You will always hold a special place in my heart.

-My husband, you are my true life partner. There are times that I wonder how we got through the last year. Our bond and devotion is unique and I cherish it every day. You are an amazing father, husband and man. I know the last year was equally as rough for you. I know that there will be bright days in our future.

-My parents, you were such steady and reliable support to our family. I can't imagine what you went through last year, as I know the extreme love I feel for my own children. You are our rocks and I love you both so much.

-Dr. E, you are an amazing physician. I credit so much of my outlook and healing to you. Your skill, bedside manner and friendship is something I cherish. I am so glad you have been there every step of the way with us.

-My siblings, you stepped up in so many ways while I was recovering. Taking care of my children without any hesitation showed me that I can always count on you in good times and bad.

-Andrea, you are truly the kind of friend that comes along once in a lifetime. Your kindness, understanding and love is amazing. From organizing meal drop offs to making yourself available for my phone calls, you are the best!

-Yalith and Alanna, your help last year was incredible. You treated my children so wonderfully. We could not have managed without your help!

-Jamie and Jan, two long time friends of my mom, your heartfelt letters were so moving. I have them saved in a special place and read them whenever I need comfort. Thank you!

-Chanda, It took a year but you got me to feel like myself again. You are an amazing trainer and friend and I am grateful that you are in my life. I credit so much of my physical and emotional healing to you.

-Jennifer H., through my whole ordeal, I found a a life long friend in you. Your respect and genuine concern will never be forgotten.

-Alisa, the ultimate matchmaker! Thank you for bringing our surrogate and myself together!

-Laurie, Thank you for being my mentor, guide and friend. Without your continuing guidance I wouldn't be where I am now.

-Lorie, Thank you for the kindness you showed my mom and Todd while I was at the hospital. You were the first one there with food and waters.

-Annie, the fact that you were going through your own ordeal and you still dropped off bags and bags of groceries is truly remarkable. You are a strong and amazing woman.

-Caryl, Thank you for your effots in trying to find me a surrogate. Your willingness to give so much of yourself is incredible.

For all of my other friends and family, I eternally grateful to you. I would not be expecting my baby girl in December if it wasn't for your support.

There are many other people that dropped off meals and sent cards. Thank you for your help and I can't wait for you to meet our new addition!